lately i have been searching for new words to describe this transition time so i went to my trusty journal from the race and here is one of my prayers from our first day in costa rica (month 2), but i think it is pretty fitting for being in the us now so here it is…
papa, we left nica (aka the race) and arrived in your lush land of costa (aka the us). i havent fully processed it all yet and i really don’t know how to do that or when it should happen. i pray you give infinite grace for when and how that does happen (and that i give myself it as well). im not really feeling that excited for costa for some reason (or being back in the states) and i don’t want the feeling of lethargy to affect ministry here because i know you have deep waters on the ocean for some reason (and myself here in eaton rapids). im praying for open hands, open hearts, and a yes spirit for all eight of us (and everyone reading this). stretch and grow me this month (and this season) papa, even if it’s 1% growth each day. right now my perception of costa is that it is beautiful, hot, and lush; perfect for some flora to bloom and flourish. i pray that you teach me new lessons through seeking understanding and awareness. i want to begin that blooming season with you in your time. i want to ask for a renewed excitement, no comparison, and a love for costa and the people here (also america and the people here). thanks papa, love you
the similarities between month 1&2 on the race to month 1&2 at home are comical. month one in nica was allll the feeling and allll the “what is happening right now?!” thoughts. month two was a blank slate for some crazy things that i never could have seen coming. month one at home has been really weird, some unsure moments but still a lot of peace. month two holds so much potential (we get to leave the house!) and i guess my prayer remains the same for this next season “i pray that you teach me new lessons through seeking to understand and grasp awareness. i want to continue that blooming season with you in your unique timing. i pray for a renewed spirit on seeking the depth of you, a joyful reflective heart, and a love for your children in america (each and everyone one of them) thanks papa, love you
maybe you just get it, if you don’t, that’s okay! i just needed to type my thoughts out and figured you might like this gorgeous sunset from costa one night.
